Short Story:''Heart, Feelings and Ego''part 3
short story: Exercise, Feelings and Ego Part 2 .... <=Sebelumnya
I think not, I love her, Ahh, my tears welling, well I'm sorry, hopefully my problem and Lani did not come to that, hopefully this issue quickly resolved.
his return from college, turned out to Lani yet home, While waiting for Lani, I finished all my tasks. Preparing to welcome his return. Jam has appointed a lift 8, Lani is still yet to come, Where is he? Is that why he's busy? Tel my boyfriend again while waiting for Lani home. I began to calm, laughter began to flow from my lips. For a moment I was surprised by the arrival of a friend, Zizi sejurusan Lani friends. He came to pick up clothes Lani, Lani did not come home, so he said .. No ...!!, I wanted to destroy the world, my invective Lani, I raised my heart on my boyfriend. I hate, I hate it!, It is in my mind at that time. All the bad things I limpahkan him, Lani has destroyed my world. Lani has seized everything from me. If people who like me now like it, I can still share, but he makes people like me, now no longer liked me and now like him, Aah, I think, not the monster that had I put myself, but the devil is so roughly what I said. No I can not forgive him, no, no never!!.
Now my girlfriend can not even pacify me, what does not, he defended Lani, makes me more angry and hate him Lani Lani asked this problem on via text message, even though I already banned it. Sure Lani gives a good explanation, that he should tell me since the beginning of this problem muncul.Sebenarnya I have received that reason, I do not even making an issue, I'm just waiting for Lani who say it to me. But Joy did not want to talk, I do not know why. I told my boyfriend, the problem now is not about the phone, not about those who do not regard me, because I was not in the ordinary Wherever considered. The problem now, why Lani did not want to explain it to me after so many times he gave me a chance? Why is he avoiding me? Wonder if a friend did not return, then send a friend to pick up a nightgown? This time I got really mad, there's no reason I love monsters or demons or people who do not have a heart that .. I do not know whether he is human or not? Where his heart? Is this evidence that he loved me? Do not know if he's created.
next morning, Thursday. There I saw Lani sleep beside me. Do not know whether what time he came home. For a moment I remembered the response my boyfriend last night, "if Lani home, would you mema'afkannya?"
In my heart I will not answer, say, I have been sick, could not that easy I put 'afkannya. I greet that morning, "Lina, the campus at what time?", "At 7.30" I answered shortly. Then I rushed to get ready to go to college. Lani never seen again, but he also did not seem to campus, where else is he? Ah, not mine. I left our room right now has been silent. There was no laughter, no jokes, silence, emptiness.
Like yesterday, came home from college, I see Lani were getting ready again. This time he will go to college, maybe. She asked me, "Lina, because I'm eating?" "Already", I said, it seems difficult for me reveal more words. Finally he left. That day I was really busy. Tomorrow I have a percentage, shed all my energy to learning. Until I will not remember the other world. My job is finished at about 9 pm, already hurt my eyes it's like, teralu long in front of a laptop. Rushed to take care of everything and finally fell asleep. Fri
'at. My teachers do not come, I decided to call my boyfriend, to console me, no other activity to do again. But she seemed a little angry, maybe because I did not give the news last night? I asked him about it, no she said she just got up. He again asked my relationship with Lani, I told you it's not important memikirkanya not, I've no hope Lani ask ma 'af me. My boyfriend is still defending Lani, he said, "Sorry it is Lani, she said, might Lani did not dare to greet you first." I think I came back angry at Lani, I'm also mad at her, why she is so defend Lani? What has been done Lani in love? My feelings replied "are you now like Lani? Are you going to leave me for Lani, go, stay me, do not ever expect me to be apologized to Lani, Lani asked ma 'af me alone I'm not necessarily mema'afkannya, especially if Lani wait I say hello, do not dream. " instantly turned off my phone after that. Not for some time kemuadian Lani texted me, "Lina, straight home after college yes?" Got shocked with his sms, what does this mean? Of course I would go home after class, memangnya I like him, prefer to turn away and do not want to go home, or is this a cue for me not to go Uh, my thoughts are too negative.
After the lecture, of course I got home, there's no other purpose. At that time I was mad at her, my mood is not bangus, especially him because I'm brantem same love and it's all thanks to Lani. I do not think anything happened, I went home as usual. After the meal, I lay myself in bed, I took off all I listened to some songs kelelahanku Throne, prison liver, one of my favorite songs. Instantly my load off.
"Lina, .." I gasped to hear the call, Lani? Lani say hello? I opened my eyes, Lani has been in my side.
"what is it?" I said with a little smile out, is this a good sign, ah I do not want to expect.
"Lina, Sorry me, pliss, I want to gag like this again, I could gag without you?"
In my mind, tuluskah he said this, if indeed he can not without me, why only now diutarakannya, after my heart to stone , after I'd hate it. Where he now awaits me? Giving a chance? I answered his statement in accordance with what I think, "there is nothing to dima'afkan, you gag wrong, we do not have a problem, I think all of them mediocre, the action you've correctly, go! "
Lani Tears drip," Lina, please, I'm strong gag like this, forgive me, I want to start again "I do not know now, whether I created from nothing, my heart is hard, no yield at all I saw her crying, which I think only the suffering, pain, illness, injuries like this can not be cured. I told him, "what can you do on something that is already rotten?"
In answer with a little smile, "something new will grow''Lani like expecting her a warm hug, maybe like the incident a few months ago. My heart murmur, ma 'af, I can not, I told Lani, "The leaves began to turn yellow onions which ends on the first day can still be in use, the second day of yellow begin to spread, if we want the yellow is still small it can be cut, yellow the next day has arrived at the center, almost down, but because ultimately remain spread all the yellow part, and when you want to wear it was too late, all parts have been rotten, and the only one that can be done, throw it away! "
Lani just cry hear my words, I told you we would not be as before, Lani just said," Let me try. "No kutanggapi words. Then he went away. I think for a moment, this is not ego, but this is a problem feeling, I can not accept it, I could not open my heart, because I still hurt. Music sets me back, this time with the song See, no need to go back. In accordance with my feelings at that moment, then kutelp longer my girlfriend, I try to solve my problem with him, "you chose me or chose Lani?" I asked. He replied, "of course I chose you, honey!" Little to calm me, but I do not want him to stand up because he loved me, I do not like nepotism. I asked, "why are you on my side? For I am your boyfriend?", The answer is very appropriate, "not, but because you are right!", Perfect, that's what I expected, at least I can still laugh in this matter. Then I fell asleep, so kelalahan, Clock almost show number 7, I just woke up, very quiet, where people? I saw my HP, there may be an sms while I sleep.
True, one message came in, "Lina, I'm going now, yes, be careful at home." Lani go, the message was from Lani. I just remembered that Lani will go out of town (call it a ghost town), he was there for 2 weeks. Oh shit, I lose it, Should I pursue it, like in the stories? No, this sms at 3, that means about four hours ago. Hmm, not possible, then I go take a bath, in the bathroom I was crying, I wanted to get out of this problem, my heart says I love him, but my feelings hurt. No egos here, hearts may beat the ego, but if the feelings of the other said? Well, only the hearts and feelings. I guess I have to be quick out of the shower. My tel Lani, to say I love her, I want to say ma 'af, Sorry, I was wrong. And finally Lani forgive me, then we came back together through the day such as bias, we cry together, like the tears of grief, tears of happiness "Lina, bath already?", Vivi startling, Gosh, it was only hayalanku, it's just my thoughts, I have not called him, this problem has not been completed, this time I actually had finished bathing, I hold my HP, then call Lani, have not had time to telpnya connected, there is an sms came in, from my family, they asked me to call. Huft, there halanganya aja, Package nelponku remaining few, I do not think it sufficient to I talk to Lani, anyways the clock is showing the number 9, may already be too late, Lani's asleep, I thought about how to ask ma 'af her, kurangkai word for word, ah, I can not, I can not do it. I can not call Lani, I can not speak directly to him. I began to think to write I probably will send a letter to him. But not impossible. I do not know what else to do, I just started trying to write,
write our story, maybe I could express my heart in writing, maybe I can pour all my thoughts through stories.
Yapzt, I began to write, until 11 pm, until finally I decided to sleep, bright morning, I woke greeted the sun, I remember Lani I rushed to grab my laptop, I want to finish my story for Lani, It was already at 10, I stopped for a moment aktivitasku, to wash your face, eat breakfast. After eating I went back to continue my story, my HP occasionally rings, sms from Lani, she still asked for the opportunity, he missed me, he could not enjoy the journey because I am, I just smiled reading smsnyaa Lan wait! I wanted something special for you, I will finish my story soon, I miss you, Lani I love you, I love you, I'm not angry anymore you Lan, Lan to go home yes, I love you, 4ever! Finally finished my story, too, right at 14:45, Saturday, May 21, 2011.
''Through this story tell, if I have forgiven you through this story I could express all my heart. I love you, my friend.! Forever''
* FINISHED *
MBSMP4ESD
(* Thank you Besty on his short story, hopefully lasting friendships you guys, remember to share the ego aside, do not be frank with each other bury Clearly, Cherss ... ^ _ ~
* To Pity sorry yah sempet not create a story for you as promised, but it turns out your friend (Besty) has made a beautiful story for you ..)
Thank's all ..............
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