Short Story:''Heart, Feelings and Ego
*''his masterpiece short story ^ _ ^ thanks Besty sharingnya .....''*
Call me Lina, Angelina. A name that is easy to remember, I have a friend, his name is Lani, We are old friends since elementary school I knew him, He's one of my best friends. But now! being questioned as teman.Kronologisnya like this: when our junior high school classmates, and got close, there never was a problem, then, we met in high school. In high school I started to know him further, the nature of the unseen all this started to become visible, it was him either, but a little selfish. Similar to my nature. The difference is, he's anti cowok.Aku (^-^) gag. He looked naive and innocent but in fact not the case, he knows many things that I do not know, Setauku when it was him shy, quiet and not confident. Family ever said to me, then we're taking care of needs for college, "Lin, yes please, if there is any news, you know Lani, she gag tau klo info anything you gag you know, help him take care of everything, he gag understand, he could gag anything, ask him, he is not an independent person, which can be all things! "," Yapzt ", I replied spontaneously. At that time I have not decided whether I could keep it or not, if I could take care of it or not, I'm not ready to teach her everything I know. (Bingung.com)
There have been a problem, about a year ago. At that time I was out of town (* call the city of love), misunderstanding, it is pobud said if there is a problem. He was angry, he's upset, he showed his ego, so that makes me angry. At that time I was away from him, although he had asked ma 'af, I told this problem to my brother, that I do not want to be with Lani, Lani is not independent, could not anything, and I chose for myself, not long after, he caught up to the city love. I let him alone, not with me. Ever Lala, one of our friend, asked him in front of me, "What are you alone down there? S looked the same gag stay Lina wrote? ", A moment I paused at the question, really, there's no reason I let myself, and indeed I never asked him. Simple Lani replied "no place, there are too many people". Huuhh,, Lani answers reassured me,
Lama in the city of love makes me closer to him, could not let her alone, her best friend, my little heart said so, I do all the best for her, as best I could, well, the same goes with him. I love him, I could not fool myself about it. Any difficulty which passed Lani is my predicament. At that time my brother told me that I wanted to be together again with Lani, a little confused brother replied, "if you're already confident with your decision? Not if you the one who said you could not take care of it, make it independent and teach him everything? ", I just say on big brother," I want to try ". The decision in my hands, and sister received it as long as it is good. My
whom live ditempatku Lani, and since we were together I teach everything I know. Likewise with her, she teach me new things that I do not know, that he apparently knows a lot of things. A little about me, not everything I know I beritau in people, not all is right I said right at people, and not always the one I told you one in person. And one more thing, I do not like people I compete with my way. But, for Lani without exception, even for things he taught me no matter how small. I saw the changes, he is getting to be brave, confident, hanging out and can make herself look pretty, One again, she was not quiet, I'm happy, my heart says I work, teach me all that well received by Lani, partially implemented.
But somehow since when, I do not know, he became wild, I like have created a monster. Oh, God! What mistakes I had done. He menyaingiku it my way, something that at least I like, The world upside down, all of which liked me, now love it, all that love me now love him. Kutenangkan my heart, I try to positive thinking, well, maybe she's better than me, he's not a rival, he's my best friend, so what's wrong I share, yet I'm also not going to lack, so fikirku. At that time I did not think it's a problem, I trust him, a friend indeed possible treason, but to friendships based on love and affection, I think it's impossible. Lani menyaingiku impossible, impossible Lani menghianatiku. I like the sky, and its star Lani. Stars do not appear if there's no heaven, as are the heavens, it was beautiful without stars.
Like grief we live together, until one day we experienced conflict. Well conflict! Fyuhh, ...
Night Monday. At that time we were talking about a problem.
"Lina, do you think that allow long-distance marriage," said Lani.
long Without thinking I replied, "gag may donk, Ntar people consent granted, you cool the way to the mall instead. " Lani
argue, "may-may aja s looked ...". My
Lani cut answers, with a slightly annoyed tone, "helloww,, what do you want your papa Ntar ngirimin husband for you here, without telling you they've granted in the village of consent? Where there is sich a wedding long distance? Crazy times are like that! "
Lani remain at its founding," I may 's looked far i know, I've read on the internet, klo gag wrong, marriage is done via telephone.! "
Answer Lani started membuatu upset, she was testing me, he asked the already she knows me, I do not think he did it to me. I thought okay this problem, according to my logic is still not possible.
"What use any phone, after all the way there are also those who do, you just stay here aja, ja Ntar can you listen to them consent granted while in the bathroom, they're gag again what you know!" So that I delivered in accordance which occurred in my mind, Lani had never questioned the example I gave, he just said, "now it has no 3G or it could be the internet, anyways I mean her boyfriend is away from the prince, so the final offer was conducted via phone Kabul", he explained. Logic
I still can not accept, in my mind that thought about it, it could be a boy again busy-busy working, truz the guy just said, yes, yes, continue it, as he was busy doing his job, and fit up to a turn new guy he paused and said a final offer Kabul, then turn off the phone and get back to work. Hmmm, very easy to get married .. yes ..? Lani
Kubantah again saying, "stay aja gag as possible, who the hell said it was permissible, when you read the internet?"
Lani replied, "Maybe, just maybe, I can prove it to you, I can open the internet now, if I'm right You must mijitin me for an hour, but if I'm wrong you can ask any kind that you want ".
Gosh, I bet Lani invites. Upset, angry, feeling like screaming, I should have realized from the beginning she was testing me, he had no proof, he set me up, sahabatkah who do so? I do not think he is doing this to me, I'm confused, do not know what to do, logic (according to the examples / explanations that I gave) his marriage would not be happening, I told him, "if I ask what you can give me a house? If I ask what car you can afford it? It is, you do have proof, but I think using common sense, where your common sense? Udah gag da? Crazy lo! "
Stunned Lani hear my words," what? ", She said wanted to be sure, is it true that he heard?
I'm very upset, he wanted me to squeeze in an hour with the evidence it has, never will, I do not want to, I am not a masseuse, I'm not a maid, once Lani heart to do so to me, where his conscience? Are there he thinks I'm his friend? I disappointed, disappointed him, I'm emotional, I can not bear my anger at him, did not realize I said to her, "it's up to me, lo, lo, me, me!".
Having said this, I immediately lay down, sleep, facing the wall, instantly there was silence, no answer again from Lani, maybe he was surprised, hmm, well I guess I'm wrong, I already miss it. I saw only a white wall in front of me, I think what has happened, whether I should ask ma 'af over my words, my little heart said yes, but my feelings say no, my feelings still feel pain, yet could I wake up listening to my little heart, Lani had talked, speaking on Vivi, one of our companions. "Vi, see dech, correct what I said long-distance marriage is allowed, "he said with a tone so put on!? Gosh, it turns out during the silence before he opened the internet, he's looking for evidence, he still questioned it, he still said he was the true klo. I thought, maybe he still wanted to see me squeeze as a servant. God what is my fault to him, could not hold my tears it, I undo my intention to ask ma 'af. My resentment rising, have never met a friend like this, I thought no one my best friend would do this to me. I think what will happen tomorrow, hmm, maybe I'll call a masseuse for her, I'm willing to pay people, which is important not me who did it, but whether Lani want? Did not he want to see me like a maid? Arrgh, do not do not ever expect!!.
more I thought about a way out, hmmm, maybe I can bertanyapada professor of religion, well, tomorrow there is coincidence of religious subjects, little makes me calm, and eventually I fell asleep, bright morning, so I went to the campus spirit, though not greet each other with Lani, I feel very soon all this will end, had it occurred, if my teachers said such cases may, I would squeeze? Ahh, no, if I'm wrong I'll send a masseuse into the home, a surprise for him, like it or not, I have fulfilled my debt, After the lesson, the class atmosphere began to silence, I ventured over to my teachers, and I started to open conversations with my HP is ready to record the answer, just in case I'm right, I got proof.
"Sir, would be little question sir?"
"Yes, of course, what is it?" Replied my teachers.
"Look sir, yesterday there is little debate in the dorm, about the long-distance marriage. So whether it be long-distance marriage or not? "
" Oo, really like this, long-distance marriage right now is still being debated by the scholars, some scholars say may, and some say should not be, long-distance marriage was rare, because marriage itukan is something sacred, if anything happens of course the situation is very urgent and implementation in both places must be sacred. But some scholars are still not able to receive long-distance marriage "is perfectly clear.
"Thank you sir, the explanation", I said.
Then we left the class room, I hurried home, there is a sense of happiness, to laugh. Apparently they thought we were both right, scholars argue aja. So why do we have to menggap this problem. It's not our study. Let the scholars are arguing, and determine future decisions.
Arriving at the house, I saw he was happy to laugh with friends the other boarders, what made him so happy? Negatifku mind began to emerge, would not he consider this problem, would not he want to finish? Or maybe he's happy because he considers had won, he could not wait to see me squeeze as a servant his master massage? I remembered the story of the movie 30 Days Love, three Companions bet and eventually fight. Huh, my mind messed up, I came back angry, I feel sick to see a laugh. Lani as if laughing at the top grief. Did not want me to say hello first, I let him with his happiness that. Sick, that's all I guess. In vain I asked my teachers.
night I lead his own. I remembered there would be someone far away, my boyfriend, maybe he can calm me down. I tried to contact him, many times. Not in the lift. It's been a long time I did not called him, but where he is now when I need? Hours almost pointing the 9. I decided to call one of my best friend, Andi, good guy who pobud there for me, I told all my problems to him, he spontaneously replied, he had just seen a new boyfriend home from home mantannya.Aku silent. Damn, why all the problems came up? What really happened? I tried to calm myself, maybe this ordeal.
Tuesday morning, I tried to live a day as usual, it's hard, but I could not have stopped there only silence. Problems with my unfinished, now new problems have emerged. I try to solve them one by one, the night my phone my girlfriend, I asked whereabouts last night, with a tone of surprise he replied that he was playing at a friend's house. Convoluted, complicated, he pobud defend himself, eventually I decided he! It's useless to hold together. Maybe he's annoyed me more confidence as Andi than him. I myself confused, is it true that this decision? Was unable to hold my tears fell, I lost two of the most loved person at the same time. Lord, is this for your exams? After this what else? I like the heartless, sick, sore, Wherever my heart is lost, destroyed, How could I not, should now have a friend who can soothe me, I desperately need his presence. Lani, where are you? Are not you supposed to be here with me? Not if a friend was there when salau joy and sorrow?
Wednesday morning, as usual activities, interspersed with tears when reminded of the problem. Go home from the campus I saw Lani busy with activities. Is there watching him? Are there she knows if
I broke up with my boyfriend? Obviously not, he's cool with my situation, the surrounding circumstances. He seemed not to care. God, created from the heart whether Lani, my thoughts go back a mess, I like have created a monster, he's wild, do not remember all the kindness Lani, Lani has forgotten me, he was cool with her world now, well, supposed to be my world, she took all I had. Do not know what flavor that grows in my heart. I like to hate, he's not that I know Lani first. Do not know for sure if it is hate or pain that is being transformed into hate.
Thursday, the fourth day without Lani. Dosakah us without greeting each other during these four days? Look silly, I know from elementary school friends now go just because a small problem. Minor problems that seem to dead end. Problems with no way out, How could I not, she never would say hello to me first, so do I. He just menunggua, just like me. Although there is a saying every problem there must be a way out, but for this problem that does not seem to apply, because no one would budge, my ego and the ego the same height, but the only way out would have nothing to yield. Fri
'at. No class schedule, not know what to do. Confused, I felt like I was not able to live this life, I want to devote all my pain. But to whom? Who wants to accommodate deritaku this? My heart consisting of 100% love, 50% to my friend Lani and 50% more for my boyfriend, now both are missing. I was like paralyzed, unable to walk. A person can live with one kidney, as well as I, can live with half a heart, it hurts because love is usual for me, because I have a Lani who can treat it, loss of friends but have a love still can menguatkanku, although my journey would be crippled at least my life is still could walk, but now? both go, who can help me, I cried more and become.
Suppose there is someone who can remove these tears. Ferdi, I remembered him. I left my ex-boyfriend first, ahh, if he still wants to remove these tears as before? Shall he cared about me. Hmm, there's only one way to know the answer, try. My tel Ferdinand, his voice is still as before. He just returned to college, I asked him to pick me up to the house, answer is simple, "well, I'll be 10 minutes." Thankz god, a little incredulously, Ferdinand granted my request. I told him my problem with Lani in Ferdinand, but do not tell you about my boyfriend. Ferdi calm me, he relented and gave me advice I know men never relented and did not want to lose, but he recommend me to try it, it does not mean succumbing to defeat, words of wisdom out of ucapanya.Belum could I respond to say, he was membantahku, Ferdinand seems to know what I would say. "Try it, it was difficult, but even more difficult a life full of problems, I understand you need time, at least you can prepare mentally until day week tomorrow, not for too long, but I'm also not asking you now if you're not ready "Wow, I like seeing an angel in him. My brain digesting every word, I seem to have a new spirit, a new hope, though I do not know would I try to give in to say hello to Lani.
Saturday morning, wake up, I saw Lani sleep in the living room, the atmosphere was quiet, because holidays usually are like that, time to reap the purity of boarding school boys (Z_Z). I do not know what possessed me, whatever happens, I can not stand myself, my heart, my feelings, my ego defeat, Lani wake me gently. "Lan got up, Come with me for a while", take me. Lani immediately get up and keep the invitation. We walked into the room. Wherever I am ready for what happened, I'm Wherever ready to accept my defeat, even though people say it does not mean succumbing to lose, but I feel I try to do anything stupid, so said my ego, but my heart says I'm right, continue this action. In the room, we paused, I looked at Lani's eyes, he was behind me. Our tears are both running, we hugged, "Lani, I love you, forgive me", I whispered to him, "I have forgiven you, Lin! Long before you're sorry. I also love you. I just want to see you beat me this time, I'm proud you, you can do it. I do not even believe you can! Henceforth I will succumb to you, Lin! ", The words seemed to stop the world Lani, I'm happy, I'm happy, I love Lani, I thought I did not want to let go of his arms, I'm afraid to lose it .. Lani also helped me find parts of my heart again, well my love, Lani pobud can help me out in a matter cinta.Aku have put 'afkannya. As I mema'afkan Lani. Until now I have them back.
.. But happiness is not pobud favors. A few months after that we go back into conflict. This time it's worse,!
Continue here ^ _ ^ => Part 2
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